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Thursday, July 28, 2011

A letter to my wife.

This is a letter to my wife, friend, lover and now as her Female partner.

We have been together since 1998 and have just enjoyed our 1st thirteen years together. Our pasts have been filled with nightmares and running from ourselves for so many years now. 

Yes it's true, we are both Bi-Polar and Schizophrenic. For the last three years, no make that eight years, you have had to deal with my illness and continued therapy and medication. We've learned there is no miracle cure for Schizophrenia, we can only learn to find the control within us. 

I have been at this recovery and discovery and truly found who I was and am now for eight or more years. At the very beginning of that journey we had to make a choice about two of our grand children's well being. We had to consider a lot in a very short time and spent thousands of dollars and inspections before, nine months later, we were given 'Court Ordered Permanent Custody'. This was a fresh start for me, one that I was willing to take on despite my age. Now after three years I feel in an impossible situation concerning our discussion today. 

My whole life has been one domino after another, my walls kept getting weaker and I found you.I love you.


Give me some time I beg you.


Mish

Change our children and we change the future

My promise to my kids. I am not your friend. I am your parent. I will stalk you, flip out on you, lecture you, drive you insane, be your worst nightmare & hunt you down like a bloodhound when needed because I LOVE YOU! When you understand that, I will know you are a responsible adult. You will NEVER find someone who loves, cares and worries about you more than I do! Re-post if you are a parent and agree