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Monday, March 29, 2010

knowing a person is knowing what that person wants you to know.

I have lived many views of life, boy, girl, man, woman and each one of them has given me insight into many experiences. Today I watched 'The Secret' twice and will watch one more time before I go to bed for the night. I highly recommend it to everyone it will change the way you think, it has mine.

"Every thought of yours is a real thing -- A force." ~Prentice Mulford~ (1834 - 1891)

I have talked about this so many times before and I will continue to try to explain and share my thoughts. We all are unique individuals with unique life's experiences, no one person is the same as the next. We were raised in different demographics, value systems, educational institutions and social and economic environments that affected us uniquely as individuals. The one thing we all have in common is thought and we only control our thoughts. During childhood until leaving home we have been influenced by all of those factors in a unique way. Some may not have had a parent or parents, maybe one or both were there but did not, either by omission or commission, give us proper or incomplete guidance. The end result is who we have become today, it was our interpretation of those influences that set our mind to it's current thinking.

The movie 'The Secret' illustrates how all things have an energy that emanates all around us from others and ourselves as we interact. We are bound together in so many ways that it is impossible to act without an equal action occurring whether it result in a positive or negative. Albert Einstein's 'Theory of Relativity' opens up quantum physics to include the very cohesiveness and symbiotic relationship that energy plays in everything. In that same mode we, all of us, exist in the same cohesiveness and symbiotic relationship.

As for reason I chose the title of this blog, as we matured in life we made adjustments in our thinking. Make no mistake, these adjustments are positive or negative depending on how we were affected by our experiences. But these adjustments were our responsibility and we are accountable for what we reaped. Many things became hidden from others in preference to decisions we make to adapt ourselves to our current life. We only allow others to know what we want others to know.

Historically speaking for the most part we are a race of violence and suppressors of the masses and I wonder if we can ever break that most evil of intents, greed.

In my life I have served youth because youth is always our future and what we do now determines what they think and do in the future. That, in the most urgent of ways, puts each of us responsible and accountable for what we leave them. In our head long race to 'get' we leave a void for them to understand and that is that there is a law of thought. That law is called 'attraction'. We attract what we think about most.

~Dr. Joe Vitale~ 'Metaphysician, Marketing specialist, and Author'
"Thoughts are sending out that magnetic signal that is drawing the parallel back to you."

~ Charles Hannel~ (1866 - 1949) 'The master key system'
"The predominate thought or the mental attitude is the magnet, and the law is that like attracts like, consequently, the mental attitude will invariably attract such conditions as correspond to it's nature."

~Dr. Joe Vitale~ Metaphysician, Marketing specialist, and Author'
"You are a human transmission tower, and you are more powerful than any television tower created on earth. You are the most powerful transmission tower in the Universe. Your transmission creates your life and it creates the world. The frequency you transmit reaches beyond cities, beyond countries, beyond the world. I reverberates throughout the entire Universe. And you are transmitting that frequency with you thoughts!"

~ Charles Hannel~ (1866 - 1949) 'The master key system'
"The vibrations of mental forces are the finest and consequently the most powerful in existence."

If we evaluate 'history' it is plain to see if we intend our thoughts to mold and create the future, we have an important need to agree and understand just what that future should be.

~Bob Proctor~ 'Philosopher, Author, and Personal coach'
"The law of attraction is always working, whether you believe it or understand it or not."

~Lisa Nichols~ 'Author and Personal empowerment advocate'
"you are the designer of your destiny. You are the author. You write the story. The pen is in your hand, and the outcome is whatever you choose."

One last thing, opportunity is what you make of it, seize it or pass it by, a personal choice. And finally the words of one of the most successful and important figures in American history.

~Henry Ford~ (1863 - 1947)
"Whether you think you can or think you can't, either way you are right."

***** All excerpts and quotes were read into this blog from the book 'The Secret' by ~Rhonda Byrne~ *****

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Sometimes it's from a child

Sitting with a 2 y/o can teach you unbelievable insights into innocence. Here I am at age 56 starting all over with 2 girls ages 2 and 4. Many of you may be able to identify with my experience. As I looked into her eyes and listened carefully as she formed her words of which she has many. Struggling with making a sentence she frowned as I helped her say the words. I was impressed with her persistence to tell me what she wanted me to do. When I was embroiled with my career I was not the lucky one to see those same efforts in my own children now grown with children of their own. Do I deserve this chance to love again, to teach and guide? Am I worthy to lead them into a better life? Will I be there to see their triumphs and sorrows? Age has taught me many lessons, the most immutable of all, Love.

Mom's humor

As we all gathered at the dinner table
Mom would take her place at the head
Looking seriously she spoke

I stand before you
To sit behind you
To tell you about something
I know nothing about

Even the beginning came grins from us all
It then turned to smiles
Then giggles
Then laughter as she ended

A mother's love is so precious
She's gone now
But every time I repeat those words

I remember and miss her love

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Life's worth.

To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.

This is to have succeeded.
—Ralph Waldo Emerson

Saturday, March 20, 2010


Have you ever had a pet that followed, slept and sat in your lap all of the time and you say "go with mommy". Then after a few seconds say "or not".


Sunday, March 7, 2010

Window to the soul.

I was reflecting on people I've known well in my life. These friends all had one thing in common, we looked into each other not at each other.

What I mean by that is sometimes, more often than not I suspect, we look at a person without seeing who they are. The eyes are the window to the soul….

When we look into one another's eyes something changes, our true feelings and thoughts can be seen. A lost opportunity to meet someone for who they are and you never know, that person may become the most important person in your life or you to theirs.

Look me in the eyes and know that what I say is sincere and truthful, my eyes will betray me as they will you.

The world needs friends to love and know each other, don't look at me look inside me.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Wisdom from my friend Princess Peace

Whatever feelings you have within you are attracting your tomorrow.
Worry attracts more worry. Anxiety attracts more anxiety. Unhappiness attracts more unhappiness. Dissatisfaction attracts more dissatisfaction.
AND Joy attracts more joy. Happiness attracts more happiness. Peace attracts more peace. Gratitude attracts more gratitude. Kindness attracts more kindness. Love attracts more love. Your job is an inside one. To change your world, all you have to do is change the way you feel inside. How easy is that?

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Inner Peace

Everyday we feel the disturbance within our soul as we look out and see the suffering of others or perhaps ourselves. We face tough times trying to be or become ourselves, sometimes in a less than perfect situation. It might be family, friends, neighbors or the community.

Step back, take a deep breath, relax your mind and look back at the world and say 'I am only one person and I may not be able to do much to change the world, but I am one person and I can do something to change the world around me.'.

Look inside and forgive yourself of any guilt, forgive others that have harmed you and finally the next time you meet someone 'look inside of them not at them' and smile.

That smile will be 'ignite' another smile as they 'Pay it Forward' to others.

Listen to your soul sing as you walk away.

A light worker and angel of peace, become one and the world will see a new way forward.

Peace and Love to all!
Michele Renae Leah

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Nine months to go.

I have been living as a full time woman for fifteen months now. I have experienced the highs and lows of living a normal lives,we all know the stigma in society for each of us in our journeys. When I first 'came out', I didn't allow myself to feel any guilt, I had made a decision and acted on that decision. I had already decided that my life had always been that way so this was another time I would accept responsibility and be accountable. I didn't hesitate to fight discrimination that occurred in the summer of 2009. I caused harm and recovered lost love, decisions made it is time for me to make a place for me in society, a presence.

These are the things that I want to accomplish in the remaining nine months of fulfilling the legal requirements before Gender Reassignment Surgery can be authorized.

Name Changed to Michele Renae Leah. Just need filing fee of $166.
Cosmetic stuff, face scars softened, hairdo, my dentures LOL and a makeover.
Hormone Replacement Therapy, this is the one I need help with. I live in an black hole in SE Kansas, the closest larger cities are Wichita, Ks., Tulsa, OK. And Joplin, MO. If anyone has any advice as to search for a doctor to write prescriptions. I have heard from several sisters that they used a gynecologist vs a medical doctor.

I hope I hear from some of you that are at the same point I am or need help like me.