Unconditional Love

Has this been a problem for anyone else other than me as it relates to 'all'?

Unconditional–adjective
Without conditions or limitations; absolute: demanded unconditional surrender.

Love–noun
A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person
such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a
sense of underlying oneness.


THE LAW OF LOVE
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For the whole law is fulfilled in one word, "You shall love your
neighbor as yourself." (Galatians 5:14 RSV)
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And who is your neighbor? Everyone is your neighbor. This is shown in the Parable Of The Good Samaritan (Luke 10:25-37, shown below). Therefore, "Love your neighbor as yourself" really means "Love all people as yourself," because everyone is our neighbor.

And given this is 'The golden rule' a standard I held my self high upon. I denied my true self from finding happiness. Let me explain.

I first discovered I was transsexual when I was 10 years old when I had a one time sexual experience with a dominate twelve year old friend.

The year was 1960, historically that knowledge had to be stored and denied, period.

I explained it in that tone to again tell you I held myself to that higher standard of 'The golden rule' to the extreme all the time wanting the return of that same standard from others.

The year is 2011, even today the fear to live as the person you truly are is stored and denied by many.

I have seen many great programs that have helped my confidence that the day is coming when gender-dysphoria is accepted fully and we can all live a happy and productive life.

As for the statement 'as it relates to 'all'.', we still have so far to go. But I for one will stand before you and say 'I will live my life by a higher standard, as I always have tried, but now I will live that life as the female I was meant to be back in 1953.

For three years now I have lived openly as a female, am currently taking my hormones daily as prescribed. And raising two girl grand children as a 'poppy' and am enjoying every minute of life.

But when will the rest of the world understand that the only path to true happiness and peace for this world IS 'Unconditional Love'.

The greatest 2 days and on; this journey will become my future.

On November 8, 2008 I made a most important decision for my personal happiness. This decision was the hardest thing I had done in the previous 50 years. Since that time I always suspected I was different from the other boys. I was fascinated by my sisters clothes, I wanted to be able to wear those pretty things. Over the following years, with the exception of those days dominated by religion, I had something feminine to wear when I could.

Now I have spent the last 2 days in total unbelief , excitement, fright and elation in 48 hrs. On Tuesday, November 16, 2010, I went to KU Medical University and did the obligatory family medical history, personal history and blood work followed by a talk with the doctor. Two hours after arriving I walked out with my HRT prescriptions.

The emotions ran from, fright that I might not be approved, unbelief it was about to be one of the last steps in my journey to womanhood, excitement when the Doctor and personnel were so careful to document what I preferred being called to genuine admiration from them that I was taking this important step in my life and finally elation when I was handed the prescriptions themselves in my hands.

Two years and one week and I now start the physical transformation to womanhood!

This has been the happiest two days and my Hormones will be available to me tomorrow, November 18, 2010 after 1pm.


Thank You Thank You Thank You

Nine months to go.

I have been living as a full time woman for fifteen months now. I have experienced the highs and lows of living a normal lives,we all know the stigma in society for each of us in our journeys. When I first 'came out', I didn't allow myself to feel any guilt, I had made a decision and acted on that decision. I had already decided that my life had always been that way so this was another time I would accept responsibility and be accountable. I didn't hesitate to fight discrimination that occurred in the summer of 2009. I caused harm and recovered lost love, decisions made it is time for me to make a place for me in society, a presence.

These are the things that I want to accomplish in the remaining nine months of fulfilling the legal requirements before Gender Reassignment Surgery can be authorized.

Name Changed to Michele Renae Leah. Just need filing fee of $166.
Cosmetic stuff, face scars softened, hairdo, my dentures LOL and a makeover.
Hormone Replacement Therapy, this is the one I need help with. I live in an black hole in SE Kansas, the closest larger cities are Wichita, Ks., Tulsa, OK. And Joplin, MO. If anyone has any advice as to search for a doctor to write prescriptions. I have heard from several sisters that they used a gynecologist vs a medical doctor.

I hope I hear from some of you that are at the same point I am or need help like me.

Hugs
Michele

Today I was shocked..

I find myself backed up against a brick wall. My income stream is from SSI, granted it is above average due to my profession. When I went to see my case manager today, she's in charge of my weekly progress and needs during transition. She informed me that SRS had discontinued my Medicare coverage, not my Medicaid for prescriptions, but any other services leaving me with a $4,000 bill. Which I cannot pay. The reason given by SRS was my income was too high?

Please note my blog titled Why "Sex change" surgery is medically necessary.

Any suggestions would be gratefully received.