Gender Dysphoria

When I saw this video of a young Transsexual girl being attacked in a McDonald's Restaurant yesterday I was struck by the fear, sadness and anger she felt.

Society is so messed up and yet this is supposed to be the most Liberal America has ever been.

So much violence, over what? Someone living their dream their reality. Exercising her right in this Free Country to claim her Constitutional guarantee of 'Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness'.

I was born in 1953 and discovered I was Transsexual when I turned 8. That was 1961 and had anyone known my hidden desires I would have been labeled a 'queer' and subject to a harsh life as this young girl is today.

It doesn't seem we've come far enough, does it?

I am usually a very positive, purposed and aggressive person, in my both my past life as my born gender and now in my chosen gender. These things will always be me.

It is now December 18, 2010, one week before a joyous and happy holidays season. This is my 2nd year into my transition journey of many years to come. I am a 57 y/o transsexual female and proud of it and my strong beliefs have come over years of life's experiences. So I can be diplomatic as well as plain out blunt.

The reason I write my thoughts are so that all of you can understand the years of turmoil and stress my life has been. The struggles, successes and failures that come with life as a transsexual, always remaining strong in the hope and determination that we all must possess to find ourselves.

But today my life has brought me to a low point emotionally.

Making a decision that effects those around us is hard enough, but when you have to stand and watch your biological family reject you. The memories of seeing, holding or talking to my grand children is gone.

My thoughts tonight are saddened by that reality.

Love you all.
Renae

The greatest 2 days and on; this journey will become my future.

On November 8, 2008 I made a most important decision for my personal happiness. This decision was the hardest thing I had done in the previous 50 years. Since that time I always suspected I was different from the other boys. I was fascinated by my sisters clothes, I wanted to be able to wear those pretty things. Over the following years, with the exception of those days dominated by religion, I had something feminine to wear when I could.

Now I have spent the last 2 days in total unbelief , excitement, fright and elation in 48 hrs. On Tuesday, November 16, 2010, I went to KU Medical University and did the obligatory family medical history, personal history and blood work followed by a talk with the doctor. Two hours after arriving I walked out with my HRT prescriptions.

The emotions ran from, fright that I might not be approved, unbelief it was about to be one of the last steps in my journey to womanhood, excitement when the Doctor and personnel were so careful to document what I preferred being called to genuine admiration from them that I was taking this important step in my life and finally elation when I was handed the prescriptions themselves in my hands.

Two years and one week and I now start the physical transformation to womanhood!

This has been the happiest two days and my Hormones will be available to me tomorrow, November 18, 2010 after 1pm.


Thank You Thank You Thank You